Monday, January 22, 2007
My new Year resolutions!
even tho its a little late but its better late then never ahha.
order does not determine importance by the way.
1. Be More Organised in my work.
2. Actually DO my homework.
3.Revise my lectures and go for consultation reguarly.
4.Listen in class and stop sleeping.
5.Pray more.
6.Remember to pray for world peace.
7.Listen to God's call
8.learn the guitar.
9.Lose Weight! or rather just become slimmer. at least 70% fat-freee
10.Stay Happy. Smile for the camera and stop closing my eyes. =)
11.My Chemical Romance And Panic! at the disco rocks la.
12.oops thats not a resolution but oh well. neither is this.
13.Accept whatever plans God has for me.
14.Improve on bowling and soccer.
15.Love you wholeheartedly.
16.Study for test.
17.Take the above statement seriously. seriously seriously. if not gg.
18.Love my friends for who they are and stay happy. =D
19.Make sure i remember i have a new year resolution.
20.Remind myself that i should fufil most of my new year resolutions if not all.
had a great birthday with cherie pam ben yong hongwei. peter too for treating me to lunch!
alas. everyone so busy but i guess things will work out somehow for us. Ghost tunnel sucks by the way. many thanks to Johnny val ying cheng wilson zhi rui and sean for celebrating my bday with mahjong! =DD and i tink macs supper after film fest was nice too. thanks to everyone! this 18th birthday will be a day i remember for life. thank God tho most importantly for giving me such wonderful friends and a great life. i feel like i just won an award lol.
anyways i tink life is simple. lets keep it that way! =D
Cloudy tried to tell the world but nobody listened. =( @ 9:56 AM
Friday, September 29, 2006
PANIC! AT THE DISCO
ROCKSSSSS LAA.
SO SO NICE.
Seriously their whole album rocks. its like super cool. its ohmygosh zai la. shit hope im not turning gay. but their music rocks hahaha. =D
Cloudy tried to tell the world but nobody listened. =( @ 9:14 AM
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
Desperado
Desperado
why don't you come to your senses?
You been out ridin' fences for so long now
Oh you're a hard one
I know that you got your reasons
These things that are pleasin' you
Can hurt you somehow
Don't you draw the queen of diamonds boy
She'll beat you if she's able
You know the queen of hearts is always your best bet
Now it seems to me some fine things
Have been laid upon your table
But you only want the ones that you can't get
Desperado,
oh, you ain't gettin' no younger
Your pain and your hunger, they're drivin' you home
And freedom, oh freedom well, that's just some people talkin'
Your prison is walking through this world all alone
Don't your feet get cold in the winter time?
The sky won't snow and the sun won't shine
It's hard to tell the night time from the day
You're losin' all your highs and lows
Ain't it funny how the feeling goes away?
Desperado,
why don't you come to your senses?
Come down from your fences, open the gate
It may be rainin', but there's a rainbow above you
You better let somebody love you, before it's too late
soooooooooo niceeee righhttt.
hmmm. sometimes i wonder, if i've made thewrong decisions but.
im sure things will work out, before it's too late.
Cloudy tried to tell the world but nobody listened. =( @ 6:27 AM
Saturday, September 16, 2006
i hereby declare to myself and the rest of this world that i will not make the same mistake twice again.
actually i never really did learn my lessons and let emotions play a big part in my life.
rashness that caused distruptions and manyyyy things i wish i din't do!
so.
this time ill make sure i that i am like the hand sanitizer and 99.99999999% sure before i cause anymore havoc again.
promos are coming whee.
i feel that im supposed to be mugging.
well i am. but things aren't looking nice.
mug and mug like one go in one come out.
like nucleophilic substitution.
oh my.
guess something didn't leave after all.
somethings never did disappear.
somethings never changed.
sometimes somethings is a nothingness put into a box.
seemingly, the mind tells us that something remains inside.
why?
cause we never saw it leave.
but, sometimes, things just slip away like that.
guess its the best.
coz whats not meant to be will only mean sadness in the end.
yet when we open the box, only hope remains.
none of that love, jealousy, sadness, happiness remains.
what is hope to us when false appears all the time.
there will be a time where we wont be able to tell if its true or false.
but nothing is neither true nor false.
yet we don't have an answer.
the mind is a selfish object that dictates our thinking.
self-delusion is a terrible thing because only by overcoming the thing that has been controlling us is not an easy thing to do. by controlling our mind, we realise alot of things become possible. but in the end nothing really matters.
in the end. and ignorant child is much more happy than a wise sage.
knowledge becomes a burden in the end, control to our own freedom becomes our own cage..
all the above may not make sense. but nothing really did make sense.
coz sometimes the most logical choice is the wrong choice.
so how does logic matter if it does not even solve the problem for us.
just follow our heart and put our faith in God.
then truly nothing really matters.
because we feel happy that everything works out in the end.
good or bad. we won't know.
for we rejoiced in a life of both sadness and happiness.
things come things go, luck comes luck goes, God comes to us but he never leaves.
happy is me. =D
Cloudy tried to tell the world but nobody listened. =( @ 10:13 AM
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
People run when.....1. they see a snatch thief steal away with a poor boy's ice cream.
2. they realise that the thief has a machine gun that he forgot to use.
3. they realise that the gun is actually a water gun.
People get hurt when....1. they realise that the water gun is painful. especially when the thief aims for vulnerable parts.
2. they realise that he might never be able to produce a baby for his family anymore.
3. they realise they hurt their parts just for a thief that stole a 50cent ice cream.
People run when..1. they realise they are too fat and need to lose weight.
2. they realise there is a need to stop the snatch thief from ever stealing again.
3. they realise they have just eaten the irresistible 50 cent ice cream and gained 100g.
4. they realise that they are fatter now than a minute ago.
5. they realise they are fat.
6. they realise they are fat.
7. they realise they are fat.
8. they realise they are fat.
9. they realise they are fat.
People wake up from nightmares when...10. they realise that they are fat.
ooops.
People wake up from nightmares when...1. they realise they are fat.
2. they realise that a irresistible 50 cent ice cream would never exist.
3. they realise that the thief is their dad.
4. they realise that they are fat.
5. they realise that they are fat.
6. they realise that they just killed the thief by sitting on him and point number 3.
7. they realise they are sent to be hanged because they just killed the "thief" by sitting on him and point number 3.
8. they realise that they are not having a nightmare because everything seems so real, especially when they are hanged for killing their father by sitting on him, only to be strangled by the "thief-that-never-was" of a father and awoken in reality.
9. they realise that they are fat in reality.
10. they realise that there is a need to go back to sleep because he feels that dying in a nightmare would mean there would be a happy dream followed up with him being thin and living happily ever after with his father and knowing that he is thin in a dream is better than him being fat in reality.
11. they realise that they cant go back to sleep and is stuck with being fat.
People run when...1. they are fat.
2. they don't want to be fat.
3. they want to be thin so they think they can eat ice cream without fear of getting fat.
People realise that running is a waste of time when....1. they spend 5 hours running the whole town and they weigh approximately a 100g lighter than 5 hours ago.
2 they finally acknowledge that happiness is derived from self-contentment and not self-delusion that eating ice cream when they are thin would not make them fat.
3. they realise that they can still be happy and eat ice cream even when they are fat.
People reading this would realise this is the end of the short story when....1. there is nothing below this line anymore.
whee.-matt rocks. =DDDDDDDD
Cloudy tried to tell the world but nobody listened. =( @ 9:36 AM
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
Chasing Cars
We'll do it all, everything, on our own
We don't need anything or anyone
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lay with me
And just forget the world
I don't quite know how to say how I feel
Those three words are said too much
They're not enough
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lay with me
And just forget the world
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace to remind me
To find my own
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lay with me
And just forget the world
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes
They're all I can see
I don't know where
Confused about how as well
I just know that these things
Will never change for us at all
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lay with me
And just forget the world
Cloudy tried to tell the world but nobody listened. =( @ 8:56 AM
Monday, July 31, 2006
sometimes i questions the decisions i make. or what i have done, did, hurt ppl and stuff. i couldnt look you in the eye. no idea why. maybe the friendship dint exist in the first place. its a long time ago when i realised this was happening. amazingly it just changed like tat. poof. the next day we dint even noe each other. i sometimes wonder if it was me or something that i done. never found out never knew coz she never told me why it became like this.sorry may not be enough if i have hurt u in a way that results in such a loss. i dont know. just wanted to say i tried but maybe i dint try hard enough. everytime i see u the courage inside me just dint amount to words
i pondered why i make the same mistakes again but maybe i wondered about the wrong things for far too long. and i always say i wanna change but i never did i guess. i wrote stuff for this blog. its just that ppl nv saw the posts.
maybe i dint bother to put it up. im not sure. how u know we never bothered. did u give up on ppl u thought they were hopeless? u probably did coz u said u couldnt be bothered about him, them and stuff. how would u know they never cared. i know he will prove me wrong. i know they will all prove me wrong. i know they still wan this friendship to continue to exist. eden's nick was : what then is faith but persistent hope in the face of relentless doubt?
sometimes all we need to do is ask. really really ask. u tried. yeah u tried hard. everyone did. maybe everyone has their own things and own stuff. but by faith, i know this friendship will never cease to exist.
i never liked taking on the responsibility of a promise. for a promise never made i better than a promise made and broken. ill just try.
2 more months to promos. like hongwei said. still im not bucking up. or at least i consoled myself saying that i at least do most of my homework now. okay maybe not most. at least some. but it isnt enough for more than a pass. maybe only if i try my best. maybe if i only try my best before things work out.
i just wanted to make things work. i just want everyone to be happy. but this earth is no heaven. Earth wasn't made to be imperfect. Man made it flawed.
A truly happy man is a man of God. A man who would entrust his problems to God and try his best to solve it. he would never think failing was a bad thing because success is just around the corner. A God-Created problem has a God-created solution because it was God who created this world in the first place. so happy is a man who will never be bogged down by his obstacles for he is able to truly enjoy the Gift that God has given us living beings-Life.
"Everything happens for a reason.
Bad things happen to Good people
and Good things to Bad people,
but in the end,
the envy of all man
is the man who rejoices in his life of both
sadness and
happiness."
Cloudy tried to tell the world but nobody listened. =( @ 7:01 AM
